Author: briony
Feedback: yes, good or bad. I can take it. Rating: PG very angsty Disclaimer: I don't own them. If I did there would be hugs and hot chocolate for everyone. Distribution: If you want it okay. Just let me know where please. Summary: This is the sequel to Let Me Let Go. It's Angel's turn. Pairing: It's all about B/A. Timeline : The present S/7, S/4 Author's Note: This is for those who requested another part. The song is by Kevin Sharp. It's amazing sometimes what the radio and a long car ride can do for your inspiration.*********************************************
I pretend that I'm glad you went away. these four walls closing more everyday I'm dying inside and nobody knows it but me Like a clown I put on a show the pain is real even if nobody knows I'm crying inside and nobody knows it but me
"Oh my God, what have I done? Angel stood in his room at the hotel staring out at the lights of the city. He felt her heart break tonight, again. He felt her soul shatter as surely as he had been there himself for the deed. It was his doing. He had broken his promise and forgot what he was doing all this for. He had pushed her memory away and he had thought it was truly gone. Like a wisp in the wind, a subconscious thought. He had turned his back on her and left her alone. He was a clown that's all he was. He was busy being their smiling, joking clown. She used to make me smile. She used to make me laugh. Me, the cradle- robbing creature of the night boyfriend, laughing with the girl I loved.
Why didn't I say the things I needed to say How could I let my angel get away Now my world is just tumbling down I can see it so clearly but your nowhere around The nights are lonely the days are so sad I just keep thinking bout the love we had I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me
Why didn't I just tell her I love her, that I will always love her. She was always the angel, my angel of light who brightened my dark world. She made me feel again. She made me want things I didn't deserve. I said I left her for her but truth is I left her because I am weak. Always have been always will be.
No one knows
But I know. I know what I am. I know the things I have done. But she accepted me and loved me anyway. Angel, you're the one freaky thing in my freaky world that still makes sense to me.
How blue can I get you can ask my heart Just like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart a million words couldn't say just how I feel a million years from now you know I'll be loving you still
What could I possibly say to her now? She forgave me, forgave the demon inside of me but would she forgive me for breaking her heart time and time again. I would come back into her life just to leave her. I did it again and again. She asked me to stay but I always turned away from her. Why didn't I stay? She was the best thing that ever happened to me. I wandered 240 years before I found her. Then what do I do? I give her up. Time and time again, I gave her up. I will love her until the end. I know it's the truth. I can't say it out loud but I know it inside my heart.
The nights are lonely the days are so sad I just keep thinking about the love that we had and I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me
I can't tell them. I miss you. I can't tell them I still love you. They don't want to hear it. They won't even say your name out loud. They tell me I love Cordelia. I know deep inside its not true. They want to pretend your still dead. You are always alive in my dreams.
Nobody No one knows Nobody knows Nobody knows it but me
Nobody, no one knows. Nobody knows. Nobody knows it but me. Lorne is standing in my doorway shaking his head sadly. "That's where your wrong Angel boy. I know."
the end